The Grace of Passing Time

Recently I had the opportunity of revisiting a powerful experience from the past from both sides; one as a person deeply affected and the other as a person who was merely a participant in someone else’s powerful experience. When I was in college a friend had a huge impact on me and my future. She changed the course of my life and I thought of that experience and referred to it many times over the years. She showed me that life was not only material, but was spiritual as well. She opened me to curiosity, science and mysticism. We had many unexplained experiences together that are as clear to me today as the day they occurred. That encounter turned me onto a path of science and later healing. It changed my life and I never forgot it. I was always curious what happened to her and wondered what it would be like to reconnect. I had that moment and it was not what I expected. The golden luster of the long past experience was gone. Before me sat an ordinary woman, accomplished in her own right, but not the mystical woman I had recalled. I shared my memory of our time together and she shrugged it off. For her, it was a common memory. For me it was a golden moment.

There is an old Chinese proverb that we are each born with a red thread tied to our ankle that is connected to all those important people we will encounter, by chance or purpose, throughout our lives. That string can stretch and tangle but it never breaks. I suspect that memorable moments are with those people. But it seems it is not always a mutual experience. It may be much more meaningful for one than the other.

Recently I wrote here about an anonymous friend that expressed gratitude to me after 50 years of separation. It was clear that the time we were together was extremely meaningful and important for them. I greatly appreciated hearing how important our time was for them, but didn’t share it. Perhaps the special, magical moments of transformation are personal and transpersonal. There is something in us that is awakened and reminds us of who we are on a deep level of knowing beyond our conscious day to day mind.  Then the grace of time passing, like a river, serves to scour away the debris, rounding off the rough edges, making it even more significant in our minds and hearts. It is ours, and only ours. Personal and transpersonal. I could not imagine that something so significant to me could be dismissed by the other. But knowing it is not a shared golden moment does not diminish it in any way. It reminds me that we are greater than the physical, affected but unattached to what the other does or says. We see through the grace of passing time how it polishes us smooth, makes us better more loving beings, guides us in fulfilling our purpose for being, even if we haven’t a clue. May we all be graced with golden moments that get tumbled in the river of time and remember with affection those people who have catalyzed us into being all that we are.


My Positive Thinking Conundrum

Last night my husband and I watched a video on Amazon about healing energy. A large part of the message stressed the importance of positive thinking for health and healing. Norman Vincent Peale made this a popular concept with his book The Power of Positive Thinking, first published in 1952. He said: “Change your thoughts and you change your world”. I can’t argue with that. Positive thoughts always feel better, make us happier and promote wellbeing. But what if we are not feeling particularly positive? What is our child is sick, the house burned down, our spouse wants a divorce or we lost our job? Should we run for the hills, screaming? Years ago when I was an excited New Ager, the practice of affirmations was very popular. I was told it didn’t matter if I believed what I was telling myself or not, affirmations would still work. I’m not so sure that’s true.

I got up early this morning and sat to meditate, with this still on my mind. A few years ago I led several rounds of E Squared play groups. E Squared is a book written by Pam Grout that was a sensation. She lists nine simple, fun experiments that are intended to “prove your thoughts create your reality”. We could definitely see how our thinking influenced our experience. What was most interesting was how much fear there was about negative thoughts. If we prove our thoughts create reality, then bad thoughts are going to make bad things happen, right? We can be mindful of our thoughts and yes, we can choose to have good ones, but should we fear thoughts? What do we do when they rise up unbidden? Freak out? The brain is actually designed to have a negativity bias because it supports survival. We are set up with a greater sensitivity to unpleasant news. It’s not our fault, it is biology. So are we doomed? Back in the seventies I took a course that was called Silva Mind Control, developed by Jose Silva. That method instructed us to say “cancel cancel” every time we had a negative thought. It was an interesting process not without some merit. It was also really annoying. Imagine being in a room full of Silvans repeating “cancel cancel” over and over every other minute. But that practice showed us just how common negative thoughts are and got us to pay attention, which was the whole point.

Here is my bottom line message: Thoughts have as much power as we are willing to give them. The more you think them, the stronger the belief, the stronger the belief the more influence it has on our experience. For example, while meditating I felt inspired to spring up out of my seat to begin writing. Another part of me was urging me to stay still, which I did. In that moment of stillness I had a new thought: There is no rush. That simple thought moved me beyond measure and counteracted a lifetime of responding to fear and the impatience of others. It challenged the messages I had gotten to hurry up, don’t be late, don’t keep others waiting, make up your mind and on and on. I relaxed, and smiled. I felt deliciously peaceful. We can all benefit from being mindful of our thoughts. Welcome and entertain them all like the unexpected guest in Rumi’s poem “The Guest House”.

The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.

Be grateful for whatever comes.
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

— Jellaludin Rumi,

Do not be afraid of thoughts. Pay attention to them. Jot them down in a journal.  Allow the authentic, deeply personal, emotion eliciting, positive thoughts to find you. Those thoughts are way more potent than meaningless phrases you don’t believe. Good luck. Remember there is no rush. Thanks for your time.


MEDITATION: “Do. Or Do not. There is no try”, said Yoda

Meditation is one of the most useful things you can do for yourself no matter what ails you. I recommend it to every one of my clients. This morning in my meditation the thought came to me that there is no try. Thank you Yoda. I think there are a lot of expectations and misconceptions about meditation that keep us from “trying” and a consistent practice. A friend and lifetime meditator said there is only one rule for meditation: Put your tush on the cush. If you do that, you are doing it right. We don’t need to “try to” sit, we just sit. But isn’t that where the trouble starts? The thoughts can go something like this:

My mind is so busy how do I make it stop it won’t stop I must be doing it wrong I’m no good at this and I have so much to so today this is really a waste of time-time I wonder what time it is…and on and on and on.

Inevitably we give up and go see what friends are doing on Facebook, or something equally distracting. Our world offers no end to the possible distractions from being still. All of this is normal. You are not doing it wrong as long as you sit. Then one day, as you are sitting, a light descends from above, angels sing and you are enlightened. Ok, so maybe that won’t happen, but it could…and then the next day you will be right back to feeling uncomfortable and looking at the time. You’re not doing it wrong. That is the nature of the beast.

When we meditate, even those times when it is uncomfortable, annoying, frustrating and disappointing, we gain. It gives our minds and bodies a mini vacation from busyness, which is good for us. It teaches us patience and the ability to tolerate discomfort. It supports relaxation, dampens the stress response and promotes health. AND, this is the fun part, it enhances our spiritual connection, which means we are more connected to all things, inspired, creative, wise and peaceful. Seriously, who wouldn’t want to sit, do nothing, and have a better life? Make a commitment to sit for 15 minutes a day for a month and you decide if it’s worth it or not. Let me know if you need help or support. Meditation groups are a great way to start practicing. We have Wednesday meditations at Park Church in Norwich at 7 pm and 6:30 pm on Thursdays at my office in Niantic. We include silent meditation, singing bowls and chanting mantras. All are welcome to join us.

Have a peaceful day.

Thank You Too, Anonymous Friend from the Past…

thank-you-much-cute-greeting-card-vector-illustration-58998254Today I received a thank you card in the mail. It said “Thank you so much… for everything. I just wanted to say thank you. Fifty years is a long time  to wait to do so…but I am an invariant procrastinator. I hope your life has turned out well…I think that much of mine, that did turn out well, is because of you. Again my gratitude…”

It was unsigned, but even so, greatly appreciated. 50 years ago I was a teenager, and from my perspective, a mess. It is hard for me to imagine that I could have done anything that would have earned such enduring gratitude. But we never know which people will make a lasting impression. It could be the person who rescues us from a college far away that was a total mismatch in a time of crisis. It could be the person who chipped in to buy an old beat up sports car that only started when we rolled it down a hill. (My father admitted years later that he knew all about it!)

In answer to your question, yes my life has turned out well. Not exactly a smooth ride, but I have gotten to a place of peace and gratitude. So thank you my friend, for reminding me of how we touch people even in our dark times. May you be blessed.


Getting Unstuck

1. a tendency to do nothing or to remain unchanged.
“the bureaucratic inertia of government
a property of matter by which it continues in its existing state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line, unless that state is changed by an external force.
In other words, an object at rest, tends to stay at rest. While an object in motion tends to stay in motion.
I have been working with several clients that feel stuck. It is a dreary place, alternating between boring, frustrating, hopeless and depressing.  The feeling of being stuck generally translates to some sort of resistance. Resistance is often based in fear; fear of getting what we want, fear of success or failure, fear of breaking the rules we grew up with, or fear of humiliation. Often that feeling of fear is completely hidden from awareness except for the persistent sense of being stuck.
I noticed that if I sit with iPad in hand, cruising the internet, playing games and repeatedly checking for Facebook messages, I loose momentum. The longer I sit, the harder it is to get up and start moving. Inertia. Once I do mobilize myself to get up, it is as if life returns. Even if I just get up and walk into another room, I start to feel more enlivened and remember what I wanted to get done and start to feel invigorated and excited. This is not a tale about iPad’s, although that would be a good one to tell. This is a story of intertia.
When we feel stuck, it is essential that we get up and move. It is interesting how we focus on a problem, to the exclusion of everything else, before we feel free to to move, like it is some form of punishment. I am remembering my mother’s admonition to get my work done before play. Well, work is never done, and problems don’t get solved by sitting in them. Not the relationship, the job, or the finances. There needs to be movement. It doesn’t matter if you do something that you feel is related to your feeling of stuck-ness or not. Just move! Take a walk, visit a friend, or clean out a closet. Remember…an object in motion tends to stay in motion.

The Meaning of Our Story

In Spiritual Graffiti Jeff Brown says, “I understand that we get lost in our stories, but let’s not throw out the whole story with the bath water. In the heart of our story is the grist for our soul’s transformation. Our stories are no illusion. We are made of story. The illusion is illusion, itself. Deal with your story, or your story will deal with you.”

In my practice, I have seen people make important connections between their story and their current situation; what they believe, how they think and the deeper meaning of challenges they are facing. This is about bringing consciousness to the automatic, rote way we normally tell our stories. While I was attending the healing school, I remember sharing one of my family stories with the group, rather matter of factly, and with a laugh. The look of shock on their faces was a real wake up for me.  That funny little anecdote was actually a very painful experience that had affected me deeply.  Our stories, true or not, become an integral part of who we are and can have far reaching affects on our health and wellbeing. There was a time when healers would stop clients from telling their story, inviting them instead to get out of their heads and into their bodies and feelings. Now, we look more toward the meaningful telling of stories, while embodying. I love seeing that OMG look on a client’s face when random pieces of personal history suddenly come together within a deeper context. None of that would happen if they did not have space to tell their story to another person with a listening, open heart. We do not ditch our stories, until we understand them. Like little children, they will stalk us, begging for our attention. There is great personal learning that can be had in our story, if we are willing to tell it with consciousnesswhats_your_story_000.

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I have noticed lately that there are more meditation classes and groups coming together. I like that because meditation Is one of the most useful practices I think we can develop. It calms our physiology, it invites creativity and inspiration, and it connects us to our inner wisdom and guidance. Unfortunately, when I mention it to clients, usually as an encouraging invitation, I often get “the look”.

The LOOK is what I give the dental hygienist when she reminds me to floss every day.
The benefits of meditation are well known and can be found everywhere. When I Googled it, over 14 million links came up.  So if we know that meditation, like flossing, is good for us, why so much resistance to it?
I started to ask the question: Whazzup with the “look”?
The responses were similar:
1. No time, too busy.
2. Not good at it.
3. Frustrated. Can’t stop thinking.
Let’s pull this apart and see what is true.
1. Yes, you do have time. I guarantee it, trust me. All you need is 15 minutes a day and I spend more time than that on Candy Crush Saga. Do it when you want, where you want and how you want. A client reported she meditated in the bathroom at work during her lunch hour. It requires no special equipment (although I have found a lovely App I like called “Insight Timer”), and costs nothing but your time. I had a teacher who was an avid meditator for over 25 years. You could tell something was different about her. Even in the midst of a stress filled day she had an air of calm. She said there is really only one thing to remember about meditating: put your tush on the cush. Even after all that meditation she admitted there were times when she hated it and times when she was blissful. Overall, the rewards are great if we can get past the resistance and just do it. MorningMeditation
It doesn’t always feel good, but learning to be with ourselves, tolerating the itchy discomfort gives us strength, not just for meditation, but for all the things in life that cause us discomfort. When it does feel good, we are rewarded and inspired to keep going.
The honest truth is that we always have time to do what we want to do. So why don’t we want to do it?
2. and 3. Resistance. We live in an age of high speed action and reaction. Our days are filled to overflowing with information technology. When it all stops and we are left with simply our bodies and our thoughts, it can be strange and foreign territory. When people tell me they have tried and they just can’t do it, I ask why? It all seems so simple. From what I understand there are several problems. First is the expectation that the first time the tush hits the cush, and every time after that, thoughts will stop and bliss will descend upon us. When that doesn’t happen, we judge ourselves, feel frustrated and give up. Meditation, like fine wine, needs time to mellow into a rich, full-bodied experience. It is a discipline, or as Rick Pezzullo says, it is like training a puppy. There will be quite a few chewed up slippers before we are trained.  So try to let go of the belief you are not good at meditation, because none of us are. We just keep going until we begin to notice the we feel better, more peaceful, healthier, less frustrated. Meditation is not the goal…it is the vehicle for transformation. Healing is transformation and that is why I encourage my clients to meditate.
stress_pancreasThe myth that creates frustration when we sit to meditate, is that our minds will cease thinking as if by magic. NOT! Our minds think, our lungs breath and our hearts beat. That is the nature and purpose of the physiology. Thoughts will be there, but (this is important!) we are not our thoughts! “WE” are actually an overseeing operating system of conscious awareness. The mind works for us, not the other way around. When we practice meditation, we are learning to listen to the deeper wisdom of consciousness, over and above the mind chatter. Our thoughts can be very seductive and while meditating we will, from time to time, find we have gone for a ride with them. My grandfather in his later years, would sit looking out his window and watch the people and traffic on Main Street. He observed, he didn’t run out and get into the cars. As you sit, imagine that thoughts are cars on Main Street. If a shiny red Ferrari grabbed you for a ride, notice and GENTLY bring your awareness back to your chair, your breath, your mantra, your blanket, whatever will help you focus in this moment. Keep practicing, and as you do, you will begin to notice longer stretches of empty “mindless” space. The puppy is learning to sit! A wise person once said that prayer is talking to God, meditation is listening. You might be surprised what you hear.

Advice that you didn’t ask for:

1. Decide to give yourself a decent period of time to really commit to a meditation practice. 30 days is a good place to start.
2. Find a place to sit. There can be a lot of “voodoo” around creating a space for your practice. For now, I encourage you to keep it simple and comfortable. It can be a cushion on the floor anywhere, a chair in the corner of a room, or the john at work.
3. Eliminate distractions. No phones, iPads, computers, or interruptions T3-zen-catthat are within your power to prevent. Let your roommate, family members, cats and dogs, know not to disturb you. Shut the door. When it comes to meditation I am very Zen about it. I believe silence, unless you are chanting in your own voice, is optimal. You want to avoid anything that your mind can latch onto to amuse itself while you sit. That brings up the issue of guided meditations. I think they are wonderful tools, and imagery can be very healing. However, in my experience it is not the same as, or ever takes the place of silent meditation.
4. That’s it. You can embellish as you please. If you have time and inclination, start a journal of your practice so you can track your experience.
Books I recommend include:
How to Meditate by Lawrence LeShan
Buddha in Blue Jeans by Tai Sheridan
I am available for private sessions to support your personal growth and transformation, and to help smooth out the bumps in your practice. Email me at or call 860-884-7130 for an appointment.


Do you jump out of bed in the morning, thrilled to be alive knowing that you have the ability to bring great, huge, gobs of joy and satisfaction into every moment of your experience? If not, why not? If you are like most of us it is because we do not feel like we have much influence over our experience. WRONG! We are extraordinarily influential and creative, but we operate on a default mode of outdated old tapes, painful experiences and messages we got before we were six years old.  We can change that. 

What is E Squared? 

E-Squared is a brilliant book (I wish I had written it!)  written by Pam Grout with the subtitle: Nine Do It Yourself Energy Experiments That Prove Your Thoughts Create Your Reality. It has been all over my Facebook page and after ignoring it for awhile, I finally stopped to take a look. I am so happy I did. This book is brilliant!

“I absolutely love this book. Pam has combined the humor of Ellen DeGeneres with the wisdom of Deepak Chopra.”
–Jack Canfield

Don’t face reality. Create reality!
      E-Squared could best be described as a lab manual with simple experiments to prove that reality is malleable, that consciousness trumps matter, and that you shape your life with your mind. Rather than take it on faith, you are invited to conduct nine experiments to prove there really is a positive, loving, totally hip force in the universe. Yes, you read that right. It says prove.
      The experiments in E-Squared prove the following:
1.       There is an invisible energy force or field of infinite possibilities.
2.       You impact the field and draw from it according to your beliefs and expectations.
3.       You, too, are a field of energy.
4.       Whatever you focus on expands.
5.       Your connection to the field provides accurate and unlimited guidance.
6.       Your thoughts and consciousness impact matter.
7.       Your thoughts and consciousness provide the scaffolding for your physical body.
8.       You are connected to everything and everyone else in the universe.
9.       The universe is limitless, abundant, and strangely accommodating.
Pam suggests gathering together in groups to play with the experiments, create a few of our own and “square” the energy until it explodes  into a juicy new world and delicious new way of being.
1. We are awesome! Powerful energetic beings running currents of possibilities!
2. The field of potentiality is unlimited. Anything is possible. Kicks the stuffing out of old beliefs of limitation.
3. We are all in this together. When we go the extra mile to appreciate and play together, we all gain.
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Hillary Gauvreau

Matrix Energetics Now Included at Healing Connections

Healing Connections is now incorporating Matrix Energetics (ME) into healing sessions. I have found that using ME as the technology to hold the session invites in the best possible results. Please contact Hillary to schedule a session!

Matrix Energetics is not a “thing” to be defined – it is, instead, a pathway to transformation. This transformation takes place by communicating at the quantum level with the wave fronts (energy and information) that create all of reality.

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